How often do I want things
“Quickly”? Sitting here in the bubble tea capitol of Silicon Valley using the
free Wifi as my personal living room space to escape I wondered. Today I had to laugh at
the name that speaks to my impatience I have always seemed to have had.
I remember those first naive days
when I first moved around the corner from this little shop in Silicon Valley
from a very small Washington town. I was so scared at all the crazy California
Bay area drivers in such a hurry and getting lost in bad parts of town.
I was
finding my feet beneath me in those first corporate/.com job contracts. I felt
they were so way above me and I could not fathom that they wanted to hire this
small town girl for them. I was so very lonely those first months and
struggling to get through so many things.
It makes me a little thankful for not
living in that tiny room that barely fit a bed in. It was in house with a wet
floor from leaky pipes and crazy, drunk, hairy male roommates who would hit on me.
Yeah, that was an adventure!
But, you know what? I made it
through and found a GPS, a better place to live, a community of friends who
have become family, and I have a lot more experience this time around job
hunting.
I remember hanging out here and
wondering how “Quickly” I could find out if this place could possibly be more
than just a pit stop on the way someplace where God would lead me. I wanted
answers “now” and I think I still struggle with waiting and having the faith to
believe God has my life in His hands and they are better than my own plans and
timing.
He knows I have had EIGHT contract jobs in the three and half years
since I moved here. He knows my
dreams and fears and He sees where I am.
Looking around at this place today
I am thankful because even though I still can’t see but just a few feet before
me I can look back and see how my God was there right beside me in those dark times
asking me to just reach out in the blind and trust Him for that next step.
God just wants us to Trust HIM and leave
the anxiety and worry at His feet so he can give us His peace. So very thankful for the
peace of God today and His love that guides me.
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