Thursday, August 11, 2016


I have been swimming a lot lately and was thinking in the cool water last night how floating along in my lane looking up was just so peaceful. When your ears are under water and your body is weightless there is a peace and a moment of letting go that feels so alive. It’s a sweet moment these days as I have had some heavy things going on and life decisions and transitions to think about.

My father is in hospice, I might have to move, school is challenging me, and my heart that loves Jesus still wants a life partner to journey with. In those sweet moments of feeling the water and being lighter then when outside I feel like I can fully surrender to whatever lies before me. My eyes are up and I’m not worried or filled with anxious thoughts.

My tears for losses can’t be seen and judged by others in the water. It’s a safe place of an equal playing field where my body doesn’t hold me back and I don’t have to fight tears but can let them flow when I need to let them go. I can process that pain of losses and leave them outside the blue water. Its refreshing and clears my head of the fog I feel when consumed with this life. I can see Jesus more clearly loving me from a far when I push Him away because I think I can do it on my own.

I can see His love is right there with me, holding me, and making me feel at peace in the midst of a storm.  It is what makes me feel alive. A cool thing I read this morning reminded me to be rooted in this love. It’s really a prayer that anyone can pray today.  

"I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God." Ephesians 3:16-19