Have you got the right job? Have you found the right relationship mate? Are in great physical shape? Do you have enough money to feel safe? Have you got the great place to live? Do you have a good car? Are you well rounded enough? Do you have the right friends influencing you? Are you giving enough? Are you to selfish? Do you have enough education? Are you still scared? Are you swimming in circles and struggling? What will make you happy? Will you really be happy if you get ALL of these things to make you feel safe? What is the dream you have been putting on hold tell you get these things and are "ready" to finally pursue it?
Maybe you are really just living in a fish bowl swimming in the same circle with the same silly obstacle's in your path. We have all see those fish aquariums with the funky trees and oddities floating around. We all laugh as the fish can't figure out how to get around them. Have you considered that maybe everyone outside your small tank can see those things you keep bumping into and smile that you keep hitting them.
Don't keep doing the same thing over and over again and expect a different result. That is the definition of insanity. Listen when people tell you or give you warning about those things that keep blocking your path. Yes, it is true that sometimes people don't have the best intentions when they share that unsolicited advice but then sometimes they do have a good point. Sometimes it is just so painstakingly obvious that your oblivious to what you really need to make a change in your world inside your tank to make it right.
You can keep asking yourself all those probing questions and keep believing you can't go for your dreams because you have not yet "arrived" to that place of "having it all together" but then your going to miss out. Stop waiting for your life to start and be content with who you are
today. You have to like yourself right where you are in your journey to
grow as a person. The reality is that great things happened in this world because of imperfect people who had flaws and were on the path.
You may not feel accepted in the awkward place your in while your still figuring it out and working through all those places in your life that feel a little out of control but don't let that stop you from going for it. Keep walking forward. Take these steps.
First you have to see that you can do it even if it looks impossible from your situation of where you are at the moment. The next step is to map out a plan of action. Write out what you want and make a plan. If your not sure how to do it then get community. You have to realize that you are not alone.
Second, you need community of people who will accept you for who you are and love you. Even while your finding that community there is one who will always accept you and love you just as you are. God loves you like that. Don't give up if the first community you try out doesn't seem to fit. Take God with you and trust you will find a place to belong to that supports you in your dreams. Once you find some community you will find encouragement to keep going and taking those steps in your plan against all odds.
Thirdly, you have to see the truth of the matter. The truth of the matter is that you are still going to struggle. You are still going to have to fight everything that is within you that tells you that you will not succeed. The truth is also that if you fail to plan you are planning to fail. Enlist people and resources you can find to help you. The truth is also that sometimes we have to walk a little blindly into those steps we take along our path to our dreams and you have to be prepared to feel the fear in taking steps and release it.
So go for it. Stop swimming in circles and feeling empty. Walk forward, find inspiration in a relationship with God and people who will love and support you. Stop waiting.
